Well, the thrill over American comforts is wearing off and I sure miss the energy of the ranch.
My "brother" Wik sent me this yesterday:
The transcendence you experience on temporary forays is marvelous, if fleeting. It's only natural that you'd miss it. Don't forget, though, about your significance right where you are. It's harder to see, but more important than any lessons you taught in Honduras. To the Honduran kids, you were one in a succession of people they have come to know, depend on, and see leave. The people you live with and love at home have a level of feeling, dependence, and caring for you that's absent in Honduras.
Good for for thought.
Hi Cindy
ReplyDeleteI go through the same feelings that you have journaled here. We are so very excited about going to a new place, having an experience that causes us to look into our own lives, into our true self. That is a hard thing to do at home when we are surrounded by our comforts, our stuff, all of the noise and distractions of our normal life. This is why people go on "retreats". We just happened to have gone to Honduras to find that quiet place to look inward.
And so we have this great personal growth experience that feels so significant to us and others think it was a nice vacation, maybe look at your pictures and move on to other topics. What a downer!
But you can hold on to this experience by sharing it without any expectations on how people will react to it (huge challenge for me, my husband is very supportive of me having these experiences but has no interest in going on these trips and has not yet looked at my pictures). And what you have learned about yourself will benefit "the people you live with and love at home". Marty
Thank you Marty. I know that you know.
ReplyDeleteGosh, I love feeling understood.